Vino

Ahaaaa I got so drunk last night. By myself, and ate loads of octopus 🙈 feeling like a philosophical master after 2 bottles on white watching pyramid. Ahaha.

im at work and I’m so ill right now. Want to get a hold of my hippy but I don’t know where he is and I’m not one to hassle someone, I’m back on my bipolar meds and feeling pretty clear headed about it all.

 

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Spaceships in Egypt.

I’m watching pyramid on Netflix and if you haven’t watched it yet you have too.
Oh god we’re living life so wrong. We’re so limited, our consciousness is so strong. So powerful, so epic! And we have no clue. Honestly I’m waiting to do ayahuasca, one day I will. I’ll save the money to go to Peru, stay with a shaman and drink it. I want to face everything. See mother ayahuasca for who she is, I want her to lead me and teach me.
We live in such a backwards world where healing drugs are illegal and alcohol is not. Where we cannot step outside of our consciousness for the fear of what THEY think we will see.
One day we will all see, and we will grow in the way the ancient Egyptians did, and we will know the power they knew and be one and be whole. Our planet will be happy, we will feel a joined consciousness; not even just as humans but with animals and the plans and oceans and we will all be as one.
My body will not be here to witness but my soul will.
It will be a beautiful time.

Ayahuasca

I’m watching pyramid on Netflix and if you haven’t watched it yet you have too.
Oh god we’re living life so wrong. We’re so limited, our consciousness is so strong. So powerful, so epic! And we have no clue. Honestly I’m waiting to do ayahuasca, one day I will. I’ll save the money to go to Peru, stay with a shaman and drink it. I want to face everything. See mother ayahuasca for who she is, I want her to lead me and teach me.
We live in such a backwards world where healing drugs are illegal and alcohol is not. Where we cannot step outside of our consciousness for the fear of what THEY think we will see.
One day we will all see, and we will grow in the way the ancient Egyptians did, and we will know the power they knew and be one and be whole. Our planet will be happy, we will feel a joined consciousness; not even just as humans but with animals and the plans and oceans and we will all be as one.
My body will not be here to witness but my soul will.
It will be a beautiful time.

I met this boy when I was working. This beautiful hippy boy on a bmx with crystals round his neck and braids tied in his hair.

fuck he was beautiful. He’s got these really soft eyes and long eyelashes, and this crazy laugh that makes me laugh everytime I hear it. He’s fucking mental, honestly. 150% off his fucking rocker mental.

I stay over and we have these long conversations deep into the night, laying on opposite sides of the bed holding hands staring at each other. So mother fucking cliche. And then we have this super hot, fucking amazing sex. On the bed, on the floor, on the bed; changing between bong hits or lines.

And we have these fuckkng beautiful nights that i wish would never end. And in morning he brings me watermelon and paw paw to eat and laughs with me and holds me and its perfect.

And then I leave.

And he’ll be gone for another week.

dissapeared somewhere into the depth of the madness he lives in, and I’ll dissapear into he madness I live in, and it’s almost like we forgot.

like we forgot the cosmic pull between us, the electricity when we kiss, the safety he brings.

And I’ll wait until next time.

Amd honestly I don’t mind to wait, I’m dating other people and I know he is too. But I don’t want what we have to end yet. I don’t want him to get into a relationship and have to stop our kisses.

Honestly he’s one of the most beautiful souls I’ve met.

they say when you find a beautiful flower you shouldn’t pick it you should admire it and let it grow, honestly baby, I could admire you all day.